Prologue

So many thoughts spinning around in my mind that I can't put into words. I feel so indifferent to all that's happening around me. May be because there aren't many now to share my everyday experiences at a personal level. But things are moving now at a brisk pace and in few days or so I will be landing in an alien country. And this time there's no assurance that I can visit my home whenever I want. The feeling that I wont be able to come back for a long time is freaking me out. I can only hope that I might find a home away from home in a far far land even though the probability of that happening is less than zero. The voice in my head keeps growing stronger and stronger, but I'm utterly unable to interpret a single thing. The longer I drift away in my thoughts the more it gets blurred. I feel that I might never be able to wake up from this eternal dizziness.,

But the stage is set and the preparations are over. And in the beginning its never clear.,

The Door and The Fall

And for a moment, everything was pitch black.

I kept waiting for something to happen without making any conscious effort. Not being able to see anything made me blind in all sensual ways. At that point in time, I didn't know whether my mind was working or not. After a few minutes I heard someone gently knocking. Without much thought I walked towards the direction of that noise. ‘EXIT’ written in big red capital words on top of that door, it seemed to be the most soothing word in English language. I slowly opened the door. Light came rushing in.

The bright light had blinded me for a second which made it much difficult to see what’s on the other side. I dared to step through the door without vexing myself much about the consequences. I heard some lean voice shouting from below which sent shrills up my spine. I grimly looked around hoping something would happen. I wondered for one brief second “Where the fuck am I, Is this some kind of dream or what”. Wandering aimlessly in there I got on an empty escalator. The light seemed to fade away and blurry figures started to appear all over the place. I took my glasses from the cupboard right next to me. The place seemed to be like some kind of subway station. I made a failed attempt to read the signboard between its blinks. With a loud whistle, a train at a vey high speed came towards the platform. I fixed my both eyes on the train, steadily staring at it. My phone just gave a vibe, and it was those stupid guys from Idea. The train I was staring at was no longer there, so I put on some music and sat comfortably. The view from the window was so nice with all the moving fields and trees. “Tickets please”, a husky voice asked me. I checked my pockets as if I had something in there. I shook my head. I was staring blankly at him, speechless as I mentally reviewed the best action to take. He switched off the lights and gently said, “Have a good day”.

All of a sudden I realized that I am freely falling under the influence of gravity inside a tunnel like structure. To my left, I saw a door with exit written in big red capital words. I desperately knocked at the locked door. The gravity couldn’t let me stay there for a long time and again the fall continues. From a distance, I saw someone had opened the door finally. My speed kept on increasing and I questioned myself whether this has an end or not. I tried shouting loudly for help but I heard nothing, not even my voice. The kaleidoscopic imagery surrounding made me all dizzy. I saw light fading away and converging at the shadowy bottom. I closed my eyes in fear.

And for a moment, everything was pitch black.